[Perchance To Dream VIII : Paul’s Live Blog — Sun 6:18 am] Up and At ‘Em


The way we’ve been working it, Angelique and I, is that one of us or the other is with Pamela all through the night.  As I mentioned in another post, we’ve gotten into the habit of letting her spend most of her day time in the hospital bed so we can let her sleep overnight in the recliner.  That makes it possible for one of us to lie down next to Pam and be near her.  Liqa and I take turns and we’ve fallen into the habit, now, of letting Angelique go first so I’m on hand to meet the morning health aide.

Sounds pretty boring, doesn’t it?  Well, it is.  It’s also exhausting!  The thing is, though, now that we’ve both come to terms with the fact that Pam is as ‘out of it’ as she is we’re both feeling waves and waves of affection for her.  My crazy wife!  For twenty three years! … (what was I going to say?) … oh yeah, for twenty three years I tried to convince her that she didn’t have to knock herself out in order to earn my love, or to earn anyone’s love.  Now that she really is ‘knocked out’, love is coming to her like a rolling river — I hope, somehow, she appreciates how easy she is to love.  How easy she’s always been.

Stay tuned!



About captaincatholic

Fifty Eight Year old 'Cradle Catholic'. Married for twenty two years to the magnificent Pam. Father to the unsurpassable Angelique. Parishioner at Sacred Heart Parish in Lexington MA.
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4 Responses to [Perchance To Dream VIII : Paul’s Live Blog — Sun 6:18 am] Up and At ‘Em

  1. Misha Peterson says:

    The two parts of a refrain to a gospel song keep running through my mind, ‘Don’t wait ’til the battle is over, shout now! ‘ and ‘When the battle is over, we’ll be going home.’ With you all in love and prayers

  2. Lisa Cimino says:

    So sweet Paul – showing us all how to love! xoxoxo

  3. You’re lucky to all have eachother and glad you’re together in the comfort of your own home. I am amazed by your strength and courage you all have shown during this difficult journey. Sending love your way!

  4. Mary says:

    Sending my love and prayers to all 3 of you….


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